If you sit down and just keep quiet...you are in the state of Self-Awareness. ..keeping quiet means being without any techniques, effort or intention to meditate...not following the thought stream...not pursuing the senses, no imagination...such an intense Self-focusing comes without any effort...then, by itself...out of nowhere, wisdom and insights come.
The greatest step towards a life of happiness and simplicity is to let go. Trust in the power that is already taking care of you spontaneously without effort.
You are learning too much, remembering too much, trying too hard relax a little bit, give life a chance to flow its own way, unassisted by your mind and effort. Stop directing the river's flow!